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Along with these words..i want to share things that i'm not capable of saying to the right person, for so many reasons.

L'homme est seul

Human is alone. destined to be alone. Once I ever read an existentialist mention it, but I simply forgot who or where. I believe to understand things, we should manage somehow to see it real. In real life, real world, does not matter if it is our own experiences, or anyone else's.

And fortunately (or unfortunately), today, I bitterly experienced the –human is alone- expression. It is not alone in terms of nobody around, like home alone “alone”. For me, today, it means that I can not have any expectation on someone else, or that expectation will kill me. I don’t know if it’s just me, or really nobody can perfectly understand my situation. Just me and myself. Well, by the way I’m not talking about being selfish, or that I don’t need help, or I don’t enjoy friendship. It is just about my exact feeling that me only can read, or touch, or sense whatever.

From now on, when I feel fcuked up, then I think that I need a particular person to cure me, to get into my feeling – then somehow I don’t get what I expect; I’m gonna blame myself for having such an expectation.

Human is alone. L’homme est seul. Thank you dear Philosopher –whoever-your-name-was, I don’t care on your messy life or whether do you practice what you preach or not, you gave me an exact expression.

avant-propos

So, i decided to start blogging. Yes, in the middle of crushing mind and unfortunately unfinished graduation paper, or thesis, or skripshit whatever. Let see how this thing could safe my days. *finger-crossed*